"Appo"

Yesterday's conversation:

"Noah, would you like some apples?"

"Appo!" *om nom nom nom*

"Omggggggg did you just say apple?!?" 

Yes, yes he did! My baby said apple! 

And he said it two more times after that! 

Yay for new words! 

Gift

Noah made his Baba a little something at daycare for Father's Day.

I was told he didn't enjoy the paint on his foot, lol. 

They put it in a frame, wrapped it and decorated the gift bag as well. It was all just too cute. 

Happy Father's Day to all great fathers, today and every day! 

Again.

Pregnant.

Again.

With baby number 2!

Alhamdulillah.

I found out on March 26, about 5 days after returning home from Umrah (another post I've been meaning to write) through an in home pregnancy test (sorry if that's TMI for my children who will read this when they're older, lol) By then I was already 5 1/2 weeks pregnant. I had no idea the first month but the second month hit me like a ton of bricks! I was extremely fatigued and had nausea ALL day. I needed food in my belly at all times. I was super bloated, maybe from all the food I ate but none of my pants fit! That made me cry. Yes, super emotional Zasia was in effect too. I was able to wear most of my every day clothes during my first pregnancy and I thought, "So soon?! If this was month two then what would the rest feel like? I'm gonna turn into a whale!!" At one point I seriously thought I was depressed because my symptoms were lasting for over 2 weeks. Depression VS lots of crazy pregnancy hormones?! I was considering getting an evaluation had it continued but Alhamdulillah it didn't. So yeah, it was those crazy preggo hormones. 

Now I am 18 weeks in and have feeling pretty good, since 2nd trimester hit alhamdulillah. 

The gender: unknown, will find out in about 2 weeks. I have a hunch it's a girl. My instincts were right during the first pregnancy so maybe it's right again, hehe. But honestly it doesn't matter, (Allah knows best) although girls clothes are always so darn cute! If anything I have two baby nieces (one on the way) who I can always spoil. I'll just live vicariously through that, lol. 

I'm due in November. Planning another scheduled c-section, kinda considering a VBAC (vaginal birth after C section) but I'm not too sure because the very very tiny percentage of uterine rupture scares me. 

I was looking for a new OB because of some qualms from my first delivery but it's been difficult. I prefer only a female OB/GYN and a lot of the physicians (with great reviews) work on teams with male counterparts. Let's see what happens!

I'm just taking each day as it comes and alhamdulillah time has been flying by so fast I sometimes forget how far along I am. Inshallah the rest of the pregnancy is smooth and baby turns out healthy. 

That's all we really want :)

Daycare: Week One

Week 1 ended quickly and left us with a sick baby. 

I dropped Noah off at daycare 4 out of the 5 days. Each day was worse than the previous day. Every drop off consisted of a crying and screaming fit. It consisted of drool and slobber everywhere. There was a whole lot of clingliness and just a very unhappy baby. My husband had Friday off from work so it was his turn. I waited in the car and he came out pretty quickly...And was pretty horrified by Noah's reaction. 

On my days, I made sure he didn't see me when it was time to leave. I didn't have the heart to do that. I would face him away from the main door, kiss his head and skip away quietly and quickly. The second day was the only day I didn't hear his screams as I exited the front door. 

The teacher, Ms. Mariann is nice. They daycare uses an app called "Learning Genie" where they update about mealtime, naps, activities and diapers. They can also post pictures. Mariann tries to update as much as she can, and it's very comforting (except that he looks pretty unhappy in the pics, lol) but she swears he's content, after his crying fits are done of course. My husband or I also call once each day, just to see how he's doing. She also reassured us that by week 2, it should get easier to drop him off. 

Example of Learning Genie from day 1: 

There are 3-4 other boys in his group so alhamdulillah he does get attention. At the moment, he's only going 1/2 time, 8 am -  12 pm, and the rest is spent at his grandparents. Maybe in a few weeks we will transition to full time. 

We avoided daycare for a long time because of illnesses associated with going. My husband was more reluctant than I but it came to a point where we kind of had no choice. I feel guilty for working full time and sending him there but I remind myself that its good for him, he gets to interact with other children and play... All day. Now who wouldn't love playing all day? Plus the daycare has great reviews and some parents we spoke to were pretty satisfied, alhamdulillah. 

Now this weekend will be spent recuperating. He's got a runny nose, sniffles and a fever. Inshallah praying he is well by Monday so we can repeat this process all over again. And I have a feeling these fits will not end any time soon. 

Daycare: Day One

Sitting in the car right now after leaving the day care center. 

Right before I left, I placed him in the play area, sat him next to the teacher, kissed the top of his head and walked away quickly. 

My heart just feels very heavy, I want to cry. 

Now I have to get to work so can't update much. Will finish later. 

"Bah bah!"

On the way inside the house yesterday, Noah heard the neighborhood dog barking. He perked up his head, listened intently and then repeated, "bah! bah!" (bow bow). He did it a few times. It was the first I've heard him make the noise and it was way too cute, mashallah. Luckily I was able to also record it. 

And today, when we've asked him, "what does the dog say?" He repeats "bah! bah!" 

Now if only it were this easy to get him to call me "momma". SIGH...the struggle is real folks, the struggle is real. 

Chicken

Yesterday was supposed to be Noah's first (half day) of daycare. But I chickened out. I didn't have the heart to send him. We had just got back from our Michigan trip on Sunday and I was not mentally prepared to hand him over. The idea  literally brought me to tears. 

Perhaps my hesitancy had to do with how quick we chose the daycare. We were set on a different one for so long. I dunno what it was but there was definitely a feeling of discomfort in my gut. I like to go with those feels. 

So Istikhara was done and we requested my in laws to watch him for just one more week until we figured things out. 

Today, the husband had a chance to revisit our first choice again. He negotiated pricing, as there was a huge difference between the two centers. Alhamdulillah, they came down $200! (Had we not mentioned anything, look at how much extra we would have paid, sheesh!) He's set on the initial place again. I, on the other hand, am still not sure. 

Since he has the day off on Friday, he's going to take Noah over to get a little feel. We'll see what happens. Inshallah Allah will give what's best.