Chicken

Yesterday was supposed to be Noah's first (half day) of daycare. But I chickened out. I didn't have the heart to send him. We had just got back from our Michigan trip on Sunday and I was not mentally prepared to hand him over. The idea  literally brought me to tears. 

Perhaps my hesitancy had to do with how quick we chose the daycare. We were set on a different one for so long. I dunno what it was but there was definitely a feeling of discomfort in my gut. I like to go with those feels. 

So Istikhara was done and we requested my in laws to watch him for just one more week until we figured things out. 

Today, the husband had a chance to revisit our first choice again. He negotiated pricing, as there was a huge difference between the two centers. Alhamdulillah, they came down $200! (Had we not mentioned anything, look at how much extra we would have paid, sheesh!) He's set on the initial place again. I, on the other hand, am still not sure. 

Since he has the day off on Friday, he's going to take Noah over to get a little feel. We'll see what happens. Inshallah Allah will give what's best.