Monday, August 3, 2015

Overwhelming

I was never the type of girl to feel overwhelmed but perhaps it was because I never had any "real" responsibilities to manage. 

During my undergrad days, sure I took a lot classes and helped run an organization but I didn't work full time, didn't cook, wasn't married nor did I manage a household. Life was simple and straight forward. 

Life is still pretty simple alhamdulillah but now...with a toddler, full time job, another pregnancy and a household to run, I find myself feeling overwhelmed majority of the time.

My mother in law has been a saving grace because she has taken the responsibility of feeding us. She does it out of the kindness of her heart and spoils us rotten to the point where I feel I probably would not be able to survive without her help, lol. This is when I think of those days when my mother used to say, "you'll regret not learning to cook one day!" It's not so much the learning I regret but the ability to manage everything. Desi cooking is cumbersome. 

I personally don't like to compare my life to others. For that, I am very grateful. My struggle is my own. I don't look at social media posts and assume a certain persons life is amazing. Everyone has struggles, everyone is human. There is no such thing as perfection. 

I am praying with baby #2, life will be a little less overwhelming, as I will either cut back on my day job or even quit. Perhaps then, I will find the time to just sit back "without a care" in the world. Inshallah. Amen. 

Sunday, August 2, 2015

Bedtime

We used to be on a great schedule, in bed by 8, knocked out by 830...which left me and the husband all this time to do...whatever we wanted/needed. We sacrificed many dinner invitations, and general invitations if they occurred past 8 o clock, all for the sake of our child and his bedtime. I don't regret it at all because he was doing good...until recently. 

We would push the bedtime curfew here and there, as he was becoming less fussier around that time. Now bedtime is anywhere from 9-10 pm, even if he's taken to bed at 8. He'll toss and turn for an hour or so.

We gotta figure out how to tire him out so he's back to his old self again...asap.