Overwhelming

I was never the type of girl to feel overwhelmed but perhaps it was because I never had any "real" responsibilities to manage. 

During my undergrad days, sure I took a lot classes and helped run an organization but I didn't work full time, didn't cook, wasn't married nor did I manage a household. Life was simple and straight forward. 

Life is still pretty simple alhamdulillah but now...with a toddler, full time job, another pregnancy and a household to run, I find myself feeling overwhelmed majority of the time.

My mother in law has been a saving grace because she has taken the responsibility of feeding us. She does it out of the kindness of her heart and spoils us rotten to the point where I feel I probably would not be able to survive without her help, lol. This is when I think of those days when my mother used to say, "you'll regret not learning to cook one day!" It's not so much the learning I regret but the ability to manage everything. Desi cooking is cumbersome. 

I personally don't like to compare my life to others. For that, I am very grateful. My struggle is my own. I don't look at social media posts and assume a certain persons life is amazing. Everyone has struggles, everyone is human. There is no such thing as perfection. 

I am praying with baby #2, life will be a little less overwhelming, as I will either cut back on my day job or even quit. Perhaps then, I will find the time to just sit back "without a care" in the world. Inshallah. Amen.