Powerless

I'm starting to get anxious about many things but trying to focus my energy and thoughts only on the positive. 

I keep swaying back and forth between choosing to try a VBAC or just opting for a c section. I'm so nervous about the last 10 weeks of this pregnancy. I can't decide the next step about work. I can't decide who will watch my children if I do go back. My husband is trying to see if he can take on this new "project" which might require a lot of shifting (and a lot of money) in our life. 

All of these seem so superficial but that's what I deal with internally every day. These are [some of] my struggles.

I do not have full control over my life. It is all in Allah's hand. I can only work with what Allah gives me. And I can raise my hands and ask for help. 

Alhamdulillah for what it is, and alhamdulillah for what it is not.